Being true to myself is probably the most important and hard task for…

Being true to myself is probably the most important and hard task for me in life. In Order to BE true, you first must know WHAT is true for you, then to SEE when you unconsciously break that truth, and to find ENERGY to get back on the path no matter what the cost.

I often ask the Lord to let me see my unconscious weaknesses because shading the light onto them, understanding, healing them is a painful, but such a worthy step to the light.

The biggest problem for me, and I believe, many of you can relate, is that I am making up different versions of me and act on behalf of those versions. E.g. I feel like being a successful entrepreneur and inspired by other successful people follow this scenario. But if I dig deeper…why do I really want it? What do I TRULY want? Being valued, recognized, be financially free? Do I need this scenario to have it? It takes so much WILLPOWER to answer that question. What is even harder is when you really know the answer, but you´re too afraid to live it, so you unconsciously decide to find reasons to turn away from the path.

For me, this sutiation relates to my music. This is a sphere which is most fulfilling for me, and I know that songwriting is my unique value, but I am too afraid to go into that with my heart and soul, so I keep I doing photography – my second best, because it´s more stable, predictable, and I already mastered a lot, so I continue living this scenario through, even though it might in the reality be harder one for me. However, I do believe and hope, that one day I will accumulate enough courage, to go that way of truth.

Can you relate? Are there true wishes, that you´re afraid to follow? Do you think one day you would come to those, or will they stay dreams forever?